my heart is drenched in wine. He is always in my mind. I missed him so. So much and I wonder how he is now, who he is with, and who he’s talking to. I missed him and for the most part of it... I still love him.
But then, I can’t just go back now. No matter how tempting it might seem. It's just soo tiring to go back.
All I can do now is pray for him, that he might be able to move on with his life. And that despite of everything, I’m hoping that we’ll be able to friends again, to talk and laugh together again. He was always a good company. I guess I just missed everything about him. How we held hands together as we walk our way to outpost or IT Park. How good it felt to be wrapped around with his embrace. How ecstatic his kisses are. How we laugh our hearts out with the silliest thing. haaay bryan blues..
He’s been so much a part of me that it’s just not easy to get him out of my system. He will always be the first best thing I ever knew. I bet he doesn't even know it. He doesn't really care. He just don't realize.
It still hurts like hell though that, that's all there is...memories...memories i can't seem to let go of.
But I don’t have a choice, do I? I’ll have to move on for myself and my family. Because I know myself, I’ll never be happy hurting other people, especially my family who wants nothing but the best for me.
I’ll never doubt my decision. I know I made the right decision because although I’m hurting, I have more peace of mind. I missed him but I’m happier with myself and more contented.
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